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Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 06, 2019 2:47 pm
by bimboman
This is great value and this time of year full of Porcini:

http://www.ristorantelacampana.com/en/

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 06, 2019 3:29 pm
by Liathroidigloine
EverReady wrote:
Liathroidigloine wrote:
EverReady wrote:I have been getting the congrats for a few days in the real world as well. Women coming up behind me in the school yard and giving me a squeeze and saying 'delighted for you'. I would have faked getting better ages ago if I knew I was going to get touched up. Off to Rome next week and as noted a very different Christmas in store.
http://www.anticabirreriaperoni.it/

Give this place a blast, it's lovely.
Cool thanks. I'm staying less than 10 mins from that in this gaff http://otiumhotel.eu/
It's down by the Trevi fountain, very Italian.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 12:50 am
by happyhooker
happyhooker wrote:
EverReady wrote:
happyhooker wrote:
EverReady wrote:Thanks all. Fück cancer indeed
Excellent news ER.

From my current position sitting in an oncology ward, indeed, fúck cancer
You visiting or in the midst of it?
Dad. Stage 5 pancreatic
Was corrected today about this.

Pancreatic is apparently so insidious and invasive that it doesn't have a stage 5, stage 4 is the worse.

Anyway, dad's in a hospice now and fading rapidly. I couldn't even carry him to the toilet today because everywhere hurts too much.

It appears that hospices today can't or won't bang the morphine levels up so you fade out gracefully.

Is it bad to wish your dad dead. I'm 100% certain he's had enough.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 1:03 am
by ZappaMan
Yeah, find it astonishing that morphine levels wouldn't be increased as necessary at this point. So sorry for what you're going through, HH. Stay strong, mate.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 1:39 am
by Kiwias
HH

Sorry to hear that.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 3:49 am
by moosehead
HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 12:02 pm
by frillage
EverReady wrote:That is awful HH. They still keep the morphine levels high here at end stage. It would be a central tenet of a end of life care that you would feel fück all. Maybe have a chat with somebody senior and see what they can do pain relief wise
I know things are bad but advocating HH uses opiates to get though his tough time isn’t constructive imo.




Valium or weed if the beer isn’t helping should be more than enough.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 12:07 pm
by backrow
happyhooker wrote:
happyhooker wrote:
EverReady wrote:
happyhooker wrote:
EverReady wrote:Thanks all. Fück cancer indeed
Excellent news ER.

From my current position sitting in an oncology ward, indeed, fúck cancer
You visiting or in the midst of it?
Dad. Stage 5 pancreatic
Was corrected today about this.

Pancreatic is apparently so insidious and invasive that it doesn't have a stage 5, stage 4 is the worse.

Anyway, dad's in a hospice now and fading rapidly. I couldn't even carry him to the toilet today because everywhere hurts too much.

It appears that hospices today can't or won't bang the morphine levels up so you fade out gracefully.

Is it bad to wish your dad dead. I'm 100% certain he's had enough.
It is not bad, no. I believe when they have had enough, they decide it’s ok to go , and that’s it. Tell him you love him and that you will be fine and look after the rest of your family.
I wish I didn’t know what you are going through and could make stupid jokes.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 1:18 pm
by VBall
Have had Health Anxiety for many years and have been coping pretty well recently. Even after the death of my brother.

Met somebody today how had a stroke and is now recovered. I stupidly asked how it happened, etc, etc.

So guess what - although if you know what Health Anxiety is, the answer is simple. I now have all the symptoms and it is a matter of hours/days before it happens to me. The Black Dog has me by the throat as is not letting go. I need to sleep, relax, do some exercise. Al the stuff I have spent time cultivating to keep me from spiraling downwards.

I should know better than to ask medical questions ...

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 1:52 pm
by Nolanator
That's awful, HH. I mean this in the best way possible, but I hope you're through this very soon so your dad is no longer suffering and you can move to the next stage with your family.

Hope things are going OK for you, too, yeeb.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 2:30 pm
by Winnie
VBall wrote:Have had Health Anxiety for many years and have been coping pretty well recently. Even after the death of my brother.

Met somebody today how had a stroke and is now recovered. I stupidly asked how it happened, etc, etc.

So guess what - although if you know what Health Anxiety is, the answer is simple. I now have all the symptoms and it is a matter of hours/days before it happens to me. The Black Dog has me by the throat as is not letting go. I need to sleep, relax, do some exercise. Al the stuff I have spent time cultivating to keep me from spiraling downwards.

I should know better than to ask medical questions ...
I know how you feel
I have terrible health anxiety
I’ve lost count how many times I’ve been at deaths door
At the moment I’m obsessing over my blood pressure and thinking I’m going to check out any minute
Its disruptive to my home and work life

By the way HH I’m sorry to hear what your father is going through and I agree with all the sentiments that have been posted by others
Stay strong :thumbup:

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Wed Nov 20, 2019 2:45 pm
by SaintK
happyhooker wrote:
happyhooker wrote:
EverReady wrote:
happyhooker wrote:
EverReady wrote:Thanks all. Fück cancer indeed
Excellent news ER.

From my current position sitting in an oncology ward, indeed, fúck cancer
You visiting or in the midst of it?
Dad. Stage 5 pancreatic
Was corrected today about this.

Pancreatic is apparently so insidious and invasive that it doesn't have a stage 5, stage 4 is the worse.

Anyway, dad's in a hospice now and fading rapidly. I couldn't even carry him to the toilet today because everywhere hurts too much.

It appears that hospices today can't or won't bang the morphine levels up so you fade out gracefully.

Is it bad to wish your dad dead. I'm 100% certain he's had enough.
F uck!! Thoughts are with you.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 12:57 am
by GWO2
I`m glad I can come on here and tell my feelings as there is no way I would worry my children by burdening them with them.It is getting harder each day to watch my wife`s memory slip away (she has early onset of Alzhiemers disease).I have found it is no use trying to correct her when she remembers something that is wrong, as she gets so angry. I try and keep a brave face and tell her things are not as bad as she thinks, but, I find I am close to tears for the least thing all the time. She goes up to bed early each night and I often break down into tears when she`s in bed. The slightest thing can set me off, I was just looking on F/B and someone posted a link for Andrea Botcelli and Sarah Brightman singing Time to Say Goodbye and it`s started me off again. Fortunately, I suffer from extreme coughing bouts that leave me with red tear filled eyes so on the rare time she has caught me I can just tell her I have been coughing. But it really is getting hard to cope. If I get any worse I`ll have to get medical help.
Not looking for sympathy, just need to tell someone. I feel better already just writing it down on here.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 1:11 am
by Pat the Ex Mat
This is the thread to vent what you need to :thumbup:

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 3:38 am
by kiwinoz
Pat the Ex Mat wrote:This is the thread to vent what you need to :thumbup:
:thumbup:

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 3:48 am
by Kiwias
GW02

YOYO made a good comment. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you and you need a place to release.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 4:20 am
by 18ChinsOfChinatown
GW02, that sounds absolutely heartbreaking. I can't even imagine how difficult it must be for you to cope.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 5:06 am
by 18ChinsOfChinatown
I've another appointment with a maxillofacial specialist on Wednesday, to learn the outcome of my MRI, which I'm hoping will put an end to the constant feeling of absolute shitiness, anxiety and stress, that I've had for the past 8 weeks.

Note: If I find out that ER's somehow managed to pass his cancer on to me, I'll slice his nipples off.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 5:13 am
by naki
18ChinsOfChinatown wrote:I've another appointment with a maxillofacial specialist on Wednesday, to learn the outcome of my MRI, which I'm hoping will put an end to the constant feeling of absolute shitiness, anxiety and stress, that I've had for the past 8 weeks.
Sorry to hear that Chins. I hope it cheers you up at least a little to know that you've brought joy to millions, or at least dozens, of strangers over the years. And as we all know, comedians never get depressed. :thumbup:

Good luck bro

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 8:12 am
by happyhooker
18ChinsOfChinatown wrote:I've another appointment with a maxillofacial specialist on Wednesday, to learn the outcome of my MRI, which I'm hoping will put an end to the constant feeling of absolute shitiness, anxiety and stress, that I've had for the past 8 weeks.

Note: If I find out that ER's somehow managed to pass his cancer on to me, I'll slice his nipples off.
Jesus dude, that's rough. I'm sure your care is sorted, but if you want a second opinion, or to run questions past someone, my mate is a maxfac consultant. She's been awesome with another friend of mine, just letting him know what questions to ask.

Anyway, I'm just down from sitting bedside all night as the only coherent thing dad's said in the last week is that he wants to get up and go to the toilet. Which he's too weak to do. Genuinely never thought I'd have this much contact with my dad's cock, trying to stop him ripping the catheter out.

We're really pissed off with the hospice. He's dnr, and when admitted last week he was lucid enough to say he just wanted to fade away. We've just found out they've been giving him antibiotics.

He just needs to go out on a sea of morphine. Stop treating other ailments you twats.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 8:49 am
by HKCJ
Nothing to add other than Alzheimer’s and cancer can bloody well do one and my thoughts are with all of you being affected directly or indirectly. I find it very difficult to believe in a God that would bring such suffering through such arsehole conditions to the world but that’s just me.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 8:52 am
by Kiwias
happyhooker wrote:
18ChinsOfChinatown wrote:I've another appointment with a maxillofacial specialist on Wednesday, to learn the outcome of my MRI, which I'm hoping will put an end to the constant feeling of absolute shitiness, anxiety and stress, that I've had for the past 8 weeks.

Note: If I find out that ER's somehow managed to pass his cancer on to me, I'll slice his nipples off.
Jesus dude, that's rough. I'm sure your care is sorted, but if you want a second opinion, or to run questions past someone, my mate is a maxfac consultant. She's been awesome with another friend of mine, just letting him know what questions to ask.

Anyway, I'm just down from sitting bedside all night as the only coherent thing dad's said in the last week is that he wants to get up and go to the toilet. Which he's too weak to do. Genuinely never thought I'd have this much contact with my dad's cock, trying to stop him ripping the catheter out.

We're really pissed off with the hospice. He's dnr, and when admitted last week he was lucid enough to say he just wanted to fade away. We've just found out they've been giving him antibiotics.

He just needs to go out on a sea of morphine. Stop treating other ailments you twats.
:lol: :lol: :lol: to the bit about you playing with your dad's cock.

Are they ignoring your specific instructions and the wishes of your father? If so, they need a good talking to.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 9:12 am
by Rinkals
My GF's sister had a bit of an episode a few weeks ago, fell over and stopped being able to walk.

The Doctor couldn't find anything wrong with her and suggested that she might be malingering. As she's a schizophrenic on medication this seemed plausible, but my GF insisted on getting a CAT scan and they found 2 tumors on her brain.

She spent a week in various hospitals trying to work out what to do, but eventually we hired a hospital bed and put her in our lounge. She lasted just on two weeks and died on Monday afternoon.

It's a terrible thing wanting someone to die, but there was the possibility that she could have lived like that for a year. If you can call it living: she had lost all bodily functions and didn't seem to have any cognitive response to much apart from incessant groaning and very labored breathing.

I suppose in the last two weeks she would have been coming to terms with her mortality and it must be terrifying to have that sort of time to contemplate her death.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 9:16 am
by Kiwias
Rinks

Shit, that is a brutal story. How old was she? Your gf is going to need heaps of TLC.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 3:51 pm
by DragonKhan
GWO2 wrote:I`m glad I can come on here and tell my feelings as there is no way I would worry my children by burdening them with them.It is getting harder each day to watch my wife`s memory slip away (she has early onset of Alzhiemers disease).I have found it is no use trying to correct her when she remembers something that is wrong, as she gets so angry. I try and keep a brave face and tell her things are not as bad as she thinks, but, I find I am close to tears for the least thing all the time. She goes up to bed early each night and I often break down into tears when she`s in bed. The slightest thing can set me off, I was just looking on F/B and someone posted a link for Andrea Botcelli and Sarah Brightman singing Time to Say Goodbye and it`s started me off again. Fortunately, I suffer from extreme coughing bouts that leave me with red tear filled eyes so on the rare time she has caught me I can just tell her I have been coughing. But it really is getting hard to cope. If I get any worse I`ll have to get medical help.
Not looking for sympathy, just need to tell someone. I feel better already just writing it down on here.
My heart goes out to you. It must be heart destroying to see it happen to someone you love. You can tell all of us here, we will listen and even just writing down your feelings can be therapeutic

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 6:12 pm
by Salanya
GWO2 wrote:I`m glad I can come on here and tell my feelings as there is no way I would worry my children by burdening them with them.It is getting harder each day to watch my wife`s memory slip away (she has early onset of Alzhiemers disease).I have found it is no use trying to correct her when she remembers something that is wrong, as she gets so angry. I try and keep a brave face and tell her things are not as bad as she thinks, but, I find I am close to tears for the least thing all the time. She goes up to bed early each night and I often break down into tears when she`s in bed. The slightest thing can set me off, I was just looking on F/B and someone posted a link for Andrea Botcelli and Sarah Brightman singing Time to Say Goodbye and it`s started me off again. Fortunately, I suffer from extreme coughing bouts that leave me with red tear filled eyes so on the rare time she has caught me I can just tell her I have been coughing. But it really is getting hard to cope. If I get any worse I`ll have to get medical help.
Not looking for sympathy, just need to tell someone. I feel better already just writing it down on here.
Make sure to keep writing. And just get the medical help - it's not about looking for sympathy, it's about getting the support to help you support her.

Sending you a big cwtch.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sat Nov 30, 2019 6:32 pm
by Winnie
GW02 so sorry to hear your story
I can’t even try to give any advice other than this place is damn good for a rant a vent or even just to put down your feelings

Take care :thumbup:

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Sun Dec 01, 2019 5:34 am
by Rinkals
Kiwias wrote:Rinks

Shit, that is a brutal story. How old was she? Your gf is going to need heaps of TLC.
She was fifty.

Yes. I won't go into details, but she had quite a tragic life.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:04 am
by happyhooker
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:36 am
by Kiwias
happyhooker

Sorry to hear the sad news.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:55 am
by frillage
happyhooker wrote:
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.
Glad you were there, even if difficult at the time. I think/hope better for you and while impossible to know from way you describe how has been declining, having you there may have made it easier for him to let go.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 1:04 am
by happyhooker
I'm actually really annoyed with myself about the superfluous next in my previous post.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 3:17 am
by paddyor
RIP to your dad HH, his time had come and you were there for him. Small mercies.

The length of time between death and burial in the UK(is it just Britain) is mind blowing. Makes the grieving process so much different. Hard to fathom.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 3:19 am
by Pat the Ex Mat
Sorry to hear that HH

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 6:51 am
by mr bungle
Condolences HH.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 7:33 am
by Nolanator
Sorry to hear that, HH.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 8:59 am
by DragsterDriver
Sorry to hear that hooker, my dad dropped dead a couple of years ago just before Xmas- Took ages to dispose of him. Cancer is a wit kant, so glad he never went through all that, he’d have hated it.

Take some time over Xmas to chill out mate, it’ll all catch up with a bang.

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Thu Dec 12, 2019 9:25 am
by Winnie
Sorry for your loss HH

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Fri Dec 13, 2019 2:41 am
by HKCJ
happyhooker wrote:
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.
Hey HH

Just found this after reading Bimbos condolences. Just like to add mine. Cheers

Re: PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

Posted: Fri Dec 13, 2019 6:29 am
by Short Man Syndrome
HKCJ wrote:Hey HH

Just found this after reading Bimbos condolences. Just like to add mine. Cheers
Hi HH,

What HKCJ said.

I had a similar experience with my dad, my heart genuinely goes out to you, fella.

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