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Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Sorry for your loss. Don't ever feel guilty for your feelings, especially how you're feeling now mate.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Condolences mate. Nothing selfish about your post at all. Best wishes and may your younger brother RIP.

I lost my little sister in law a couple of years ago and this forum was a great sounding board when I was at my lowest ebb.

Tehui wrote:I never thought I would ever post on this thread, but I believe I am experiencing anxiety for the first time.

About three weeks ago, there was a restructure at work. It is temporary restructure that is meant to be for 6 months. My reporting line changed, which means that I am now working away from my old team who are on a different level of the building. I had good relationships with them and always enjoyed their company. I am working next to people in the new team, and although they are nice people, I just don't feel a strong connection with them. I am also working on an important project largely by myself.

After a couple of weeks, I started feeling a sense of loneliness which is an unusual experience for me. Last week I experienced a migraine at work, which was my first migraine in 5 years. I also noticed that I experienced an acute feeling of loneliness when I attended a meeting in which I would usually attend with my old team. It felt like empty holes in my sides. I've kept in daily touch with my team and we exchange personal visits, and these have now become the highlight of my day.

Today, I experienced what can only be described as anxiety. I've never felt that feeling before. It felt like intense pins and needles in my body. I could also feel that my heart rate was up a fraction, and I had to leave the building twice to get some fresh air and try to bring myself back to normal.

I've started increasing my exercise output over the last week, and have started eating better food again. However, I am worried that these negative experiences are going to get worse, rather than better. The project that I am working on is about to amp up in volume and importance over the next few months. I largely enjoy the work, my problems lie with my current social context at work. My sleeping patterns aren't good at the moment, but that can be pretty normal for me anyway.

Next moves at work:

1. I am going to talk to an older guy at work, who has become my mentor and let him know what is going on for me, and see how he thinks I should handle the situation.

2. Following my talk with my mentor, I will also consider explaining the situation to my current manager, and ask if I can be relocated back with my old team but still report back to them for this work. I won't use the word 'anxiety' with her though, I will use softer language and simply say that I've become unhappy working away from my old team.

What are peoples' thoughts on this approach?

This is a thing you don't want to be caught up in for too long

Basically you can get caught in a trap of explaining shit to someone who doesn't take in what you are actually doing totally because it is probably legacy (guessing) from the other lot.

I would encourage you to ask whoever the new boss is what others are working on and try to get involved on the side, if poss.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Losing a sibling is a very big deal, condolences to your family and yourself, i would be devestated if i lost any of mine, no need to feel guilty.

booji boy wrote:

Tehui wrote: I agree that it would need to be handled sensitively to avoid creating resentment. However, we do work in a place where people 'hot desk' and move around a lot so it's not that unusual.

I've just spend the entire night tossing & turning and I can't get to sleep. I think i better schedule an appointment with the doctor. I've never experienced anything quite like this before.

I suffer this quite a bit when going through stressful periods at work so I don't think it's that unusual. But seeing your doctor is the smart thing to do as your next step. Good luck and keep us posted.

I saw a doctor today who has prescribed me sleep medication. He suspects most of my symptoms are due to major sleep deprivation. I probably mentioned this in an earlier post, but I've been averaging about 1 hour of sleep a day for the last week. He says that sleep deprivation can do some strange things to people. My heart tests came out normal so that was pleasing.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow after a decent sleep. Thanks to everyone for their constructive feedback.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Condolences, mate. One week does not sound like enough time to process that sort of shock. Be gentle to yourself

Tehui wrote:

booji boy wrote:

Tehui wrote: I agree that it would need to be handled sensitively to avoid creating resentment. However, we do work in a place where people 'hot desk' and move around a lot so it's not that unusual.

I've just spend the entire night tossing & turning and I can't get to sleep. I think i better schedule an appointment with the doctor. I've never experienced anything quite like this before.

I suffer this quite a bit when going through stressful periods at work so I don't think it's that unusual. But seeing your doctor is the smart thing to do as your next step. Good luck and keep us posted.

I saw a doctor today who has prescribed me sleep medication. He suspects most of my symptoms are due to major sleep deprivation. I probably mentioned this in an earlier post, but I've been averaging about 1 hour of sleep a week for the last week. He says that sleep deprivation can do some strange things to people. My heart tests came out normal so that was pleasing.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow after a decent sleep. Thanks to everyone for their constructive feedback.

Hope it does the trick.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

So sorry for your loss.

Make sure you catch up with EAP, never used them myself but friends swear by the benefit they’ve had utilising their expertise.

EverReady wrote:Week 1 and a bit in. Not committing to weekly reports as I suspect I won't be arsed fairly quickly. Head and neck cancer treatment sucks and blows and then sucks again but sure tis what it tis. Last Thursday week they started by giving me a anti nausea and steroids in a drip for two hours and then sent me down all hooked up for my radiotherapy. As I am a massive girls knickers I don't like the feeling of being clamped to the table by the head while they zap me. Turns out I am actually ok with it.
They then brought me back upstairs wheeling the oul drip and put 100mg cisplatin chemo into me. Turns out this is the highest dose. I get it every three rather than one week and I know so about it. Said It is because I am young and fit, who is to argue, but I am not sure It is worth It. It f**ked me up from Tuesday to Thursday bad. Thought I was a different species and couldn't really move much . Lots of nausea and puking and shit. Wasn't actually able to watch or read anything for days. Would just lie there eyes closed focused on the moment. Not sexy though obviously I still look amazing. The neck tumour is now How to Get Ahead in Advertising big after each day of radio. I suspect by looking at people it may be talking to them but is remaining brutally silent with me. The burning of the throat by the radio is sore and the taste issues annoying but the weakness and nausea is the worst. Fingers crossed I am getting a break from the worst of that until week three. 7 radio sessions of 35 and 1 of 3 chemo and I can report standing again and a solid 6 out of 10 for cancer. HURRAH

I know you are fond of the pisstake but it's obvious that you have balls of steel. Give it socks.

We are watching and some of us are praying. Good wishes from The Management and me.

Battles are fought to be won.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Condolences. Don't "may give them a call".

Call them.

My Mrs buried her twin brother quite a few years back, and struggled on and off with her feelings for the guts of ten years before taking advantage of a new employers EAP programme. A decent one is a godsend.

Make that call, please.

booji boy wrote:

Tehui wrote:

booji boy wrote:

Tehui wrote: I agree that it would need to be handled sensitively to avoid creating resentment. However, we do work in a place where people 'hot desk' and move around a lot so it's not that unusual.

I've just spend the entire night tossing & turning and I can't get to sleep. I think i better schedule an appointment with the doctor. I've never experienced anything quite like this before.

I suffer this quite a bit when going through stressful periods at work so I don't think it's that unusual. But seeing your doctor is the smart thing to do as your next step. Good luck and keep us posted.

I saw a doctor today who has prescribed me sleep medication. He suspects most of my symptoms are due to major sleep deprivation. I probably mentioned this in an earlier post, but I've been averaging about 1 hour of sleep a week for the last week. He says that sleep deprivation can do some strange things to people. My heart tests came out normal so that was pleasing.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow after a decent sleep. Thanks to everyone for their constructive feedback.

Hope it does the trick.

Sleeping tablets should be a very short term solution only, be careful with them.

If available where you are I highly recommend CBD oil instead. It helped me tremendously under similar circumstances (work/family stress and insomnia). I took it regularly for about 6 months but now don't use it all all.

I feel the deepest sympathies with the posts on this thread, I have been fortunate all my life to have an attitude (rightly or wrongly) that it`s not worth worrying about things that might not happen.
But, this evening all that went by the board and I burst into tears (in front of my wife) when she called me, and asked what is this?
I have to go back to late last year to explain, she fell in the street and had a nasty bang to her head. We weren`t too worried at the time, but, she then started having memory lapses. We went to the doctor who refered her to be assessed at a memory clinic.
An appointment was then made to see a consultant as there was a possibility that she had the early onset of Alzheimers disease. The consultant saw her and thought that she appeared to be a lot better than the assessment showed and made an appointment to see her in three months (two weeks time)
She has deteriorated a bit these last few months, but this evening really broke me. When the woman you have been with for fifty five years and has handled all the household finances through all our married life asked me what is this and held up a £10 note (she didn`t know the difference between a £1 coin and a £10 note) and said she always gave our grand daughters £1 when she sees them (although she gives them £10) I had to explain the difference between £1 coins and £10 and £20 notes, I just couldn`t take it.
It really upset her seeing me in tears but I just couldn`t help myself. I`m in tears typing this and dreading the future.

GW02

That is hard to read.

GWO2 wrote:I feel the deepest sympathies with the posts on this thread, I have been fortunate all my life to have an attitude (rightly or wrongly) that it`s not worth worrying about things that might not happen.
But, this evening all that went by the board and I burst into tears (in front of my wife) when she called me, and asked what is this?
I have to go back to late last year to explain, she fell in the street and had a nasty bang to her head. We weren`t too worried at the time, but, she then started having memory lapses. We went to the doctor who refered her to be assessed at a memory clinic.
An appointment was then made to see a consultant as there was a possibility that she had the early onset of Alzheimers disease. The consultant saw her and thought that she appeared to be a lot better than the assessment showed and made an appointment to see her in three months (two weeks time)
She has deteriorated a bit these last few months, but this evening really broke me. When the woman you have been with for fifty five years and has handled all the household finances through all our married life asked me what is this and held up a £10 note (she didn`t know the difference between a £1 coin and a £10 note) and said she always gave our grand daughters £1 when she sees them (although she gives them £10) I had to explain the difference between £1 coins and £10 and £20 notes, I just couldn`t take it.
It really upset her seeing me in tears but I just couldn`t help myself. I`m in tears typing this and dreading the future.

That is so sad
I lost both my grandfathers to Alzheimers, its a bastard of a thing
Make sure you look after yourself too

Seeing as we're sharing.

I've suffered depression since my mid-teenage years. Of course I didn't know that's what it was at the time, not until I was formally diagnosed in my mid-20's, which was a bit like a bright light suddenly turning on as far as recognition of my behaviour up until then and discovering there were actually ways to alleviate it, both medical and therapeutic.

What spurred me to go to the GP at that point was my inability to walk without bumping into something. Navigating a footpath downtown became a nightmare. A consistent struggle to avoid objects both moving and inanimate. I had to see the family doc to ask him what was wrong with me. Unexpectedly he asked me questions about how I felt. I told him I was sad nearly all the time. That I had no place I wanted to be, and an innate sense of emptiness, like a hollow container. He told me there and then that I had serious depression and arranged for me to see a therapist from the NZ Mental Health Service immediately. This was the early 90s and I knew absolutely nothing about depression, but as he rattled that list of symptoms off it became clear to me that it hadn’t begun the moment I started bumping into trashcans.

So I got treatment and then I lived happily ever after.



No. Not remotely.



Since then I’ve spent a small fortune on psychiatrists, therapists, psychologists and medicine. I’ve been escorted from my home under police guard for presenting a danger to myself. I’ve had long multiple stays in the secure wing of the local mental hospital, sometimes voluntarily, often under protest. Most antidepressants I’ve taken over the last 25 years have failed however Lovan seems to be able to moderate my brain the best of all of them.

The last time I was checked in to the mental hospital was about 2 years ago. It was during that stay that for the first time I was diagnosed with having a form of PTSD. I had a violent upbringing from about age 6 onwards. My Dad (actually my stepdad but that’s irrelevant to me) was a disciplinarian whose first recourse for meting out punishment was either the first hard object at hand or (usually) his fist.

Do you know how much it hurts to get punched in your 6 year old head by the clamped fist of a physically strong 28 year old man? Let alone what it does to the brain of a child that age.

It didn’t take anything at all to incur punishment. A broken cup, a bad report, a misplaced response. It’s the point that I learned that lying to get out of a situation was the first course of action rather than be beaten for losing one cent from the change on the way home from the shop. Up until then I was as innocently honest as the sky is blue.

This only got worse as I got older, the hits got harder, the anger heavier and of course I wasn’t the only one that was the focus of his rage. My brothers got it too though I can’t recall if I got it worse than they did, as I was focused on trying not to trigger a beating, and if someone else was getting hit then all the better because at least it wasn’t me. It was all about survival of the self.

The most malicious thing though was the permeation of that type behaviour into us. We would fight between ourselves as kids which became even worse as teenagers. Full on violence. His behaviour became our behaviour. The fights escalated, particularly between myself and the second oldest. We’d throw fists, he’d get a kitchen knife, I’d get a heavy post. That sort of shit became normal. I have the image of my mother, my sister and my youngest brothers being absolutely terrified seared into my brain (or at least a bit left that works). Cop cars outside the house yet again. Simply f**king horrible.

It got better, eventually. Seriously, it did. Starting about the time the first grandchildren appeared. They weren’t us. They were better. They deserved better. So we all, subconsciously, tried to be better. For them. Including my Dad.

But despite that. The trauma we all carry has still f**ked us up, some of us in different ways.

Is it the main reason I’m f**ked up? I think it’s one of them. I have gaps in my memory of other instances that I just can’t recall and I’m rather little fearful of what I would find if I suddenly did. Maybe I’m best not knowing? They will probably require deep hypnosis of some sort to bring to light. I have a genuine feeling that none of them are going to be good.

Anyway, at this phase in life I’m the best that I can be and the best that I have been for a very very long time. I still have low moments but I have developed ways to mitigate the majority of them. I have restarted therapy again in order to continue working to resolve the PTSD aspect of my depression. I’m 50 years old and I’ve let go things that are no longer important to me regarding career and goals. The best “medicine” of all has been the woman who’s stood by me for the last 22 years. Never giving up, despite the toll on her own wellbeing (OK, she’s had to take sabbaticals away from me at least twice during that time just to build her strength back up, and that doesn’t include the occasions she’s had me committed into hospital for months at a time). She has stopped me from harming myself. She has stopped me from killing myself. Without her I wouldn’t be here. I wouldn’t be building our new home. I wouldn’t be contemplating how much f**king superannuation to invest so I can actually retire in 17 years when I’m supposed to.

I hope that I have not reached peak wellbeing and that there are even better times ahead. but if it is it’s still a shitload better than where I’ve been. Now I’m actually trying to be here for someone else because that someone means something to me.

And there you go.

Btw sorry this is so badly written. I'm at work guiding a major release right now so I've writing this during the gaps between getting reports from the team spread across the globe.

Sounds like you have a fine woman behind you
Being in a strong relationship were you can talk and share even your most horrible feelings is lucky, it took me a while to open up to my wife about my issues but she has also been my rock.
Good luck in your ongoing recovery, everyone on here is rooting for you

Speed Racer

That is a tough but inspiring read. Utter respect for your honesty and courage, and the same for your woman.

GW02, my heart goes out to you, I hope your Mrs gets the help she needs.

Speedracer, fair play for putting that all down. I can empathize with the upbringing side, and the battle royals with your brother.

Good to see you posting again Speedy

Blimey sending love speed racer. I hope the therapy works quickly.

Wignu wrote:Lost my younger brother just over a week ago, totally unexpected was talking to him on the phone the night before, and have just got back from his funeral down south. He was 51 & had a young family 18 down to 4. Feeling shattered and not sure I've even processed it properly. Having trouble sleeping and have no real will to do anything. Feel selfish posting this as I'm not going through even a tenth of his wife & kids but just needed to type it out I guess.

Our work has EAP so may give them a call when I get back to work.

Condolences, and make the call.

Kiwias wrote:Speed Racer

That is a tough but inspiring read. Utter respect for your honesty and courage, and the same for your woman.

+1 Speedy

Thanks for your words all, have run EAP and made an appointment.

To GWO2, so sad to hear, hope your meeting with the doctor goes well and that you and your wife get the support you both need. And as someone else said make sure you look after yourself as well.

Speedracer that was a hell of a post and to be able to post it here I think speaks volumes about the good place you're in now, much respect to you and your wife. Hope it all continues on the up for you and your family.

This is a fundamentally decent old spot when all is said and done. Shitfights and diametrically opposed viewpoints notwithstanding. Just a bunch of lads getting on with getting on. Good luck to all.

Insane_Homer wrote:

booji boy wrote:

Tehui wrote:

booji boy wrote:

Tehui wrote: I agree that it would need to be handled sensitively to avoid creating resentment. However, we do work in a place where people 'hot desk' and move around a lot so it's not that unusual.

I've just spend the entire night tossing & turning and I can't get to sleep. I think i better schedule an appointment with the doctor. I've never experienced anything quite like this before.

I suffer this quite a bit when going through stressful periods at work so I don't think it's that unusual. But seeing your doctor is the smart thing to do as your next step. Good luck and keep us posted.

I saw a doctor today who has prescribed me sleep medication. He suspects most of my symptoms are due to major sleep deprivation. I probably mentioned this in an earlier post, but I've been averaging about 1 hour of sleep a week for the last week. He says that sleep deprivation can do some strange things to people. My heart tests came out normal so that was pleasing.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow after a decent sleep. Thanks to everyone for their constructive feedback.

Hope it does the trick.

Sleeping tablets should be a very short term solution only, be careful with them.

If available where you are I highly recommend CBD oil instead. It helped me tremendously under similar circumstances (work/family stress and insomnia). I took it regularly for about 6 months but now don't use it all all.

Yep, I've already bought natural sleeping aids, and I'll start taking them when the sleeping tablets are completed. I took the week off work as I need to get myself right before I get inundated with work shortly. I'm feeling a lot better physically. I don't know how people can live with chronic anxiety, my short experience of having it was just awful.

I still have to address the problem at work when I return. My health issues were a symptom of what's happened at work, and I can't expect things to be different for me if I don't seek changes there.

Fvck me

Haven't checked this thread in a while!

Massive sympathy love and solidarity to everyone on here.

A particular shout to EverReady and Salanya.

Don't let the bastarding world grind ye down.

Having Survived a Tier one brush with death myself in the last year myself I know I am a very lucky man.


(ER make sure you take Zapps up on his paying for Porter. I will be drinking really expensive whiskey as I am now on Rations and Zapps is Richer than God)

Tough week ER, sorry mate. Chin up

I had colon cancer two years ago ER but it was early stage, was very lucky and didn't need any radiation or chemo. Just surgery where they removed some of the colon and a week in hospital. Still getting regular scans though and will be out of cancer patient process in 3 months.

You're a brave man ER and you're going to beat it.

Good to hear you’re fighting the good fight ER. I know cancer is common as hell and all that but seems an awful lot of PR posters have been blighted.

HKCJ wrote:Good to hear you’re fighting the good fight ER. I know cancer is common as hell and all that but seems an awful lot of PR posters have been blighted.

The scary thing is like you say, it's very common and at least 1/2 of the posters here on PR will get some form of it in their lifetime.

Keep fighting ER; if anyone has enough humour to get through such an ordeal, it's you

And thanks for the shout Wag, it's appreciated.

Starting a new job in 5 weeks (a maternity cover, but still), and should move into a new place with the dog in 2 weeks.
Though I've quite enjoyed being a jobless nomad, also now I don't have to worry about job applications anymore (just have to mind the pennies).
And I have got a week of seaside walks coming up in Pembrokeshire, so feeling a bit better at the mo. Though I know I'm in hiding, rather than being recovered, but it's still better than things were.

Keep fighting the good fight everybody, even if it's just sharing your thoughts here!

Salanya wrote:Keep fighting ER; if anyone has enough humour to get through such an ordeal, it's you

And thanks for the shout Wag, it's appreciated.

Starting a new job in 5 weeks (a maternity cover, but still), and should move into a new place with the dog in 2 weeks.
Though I've quite enjoyed being a jobless nomad, also now I don't have to worry about job applications anymore (just have to mind the pennies).
And I have got a week of seaside walks coming up in Pembrokeshire, so feeling a bit better at the mo. Though I know I'm in hiding, rather than being recovered, but it's still better than things were.

Keep fighting the good fight everybody, even if it's just sharing your thoughts here!

You should be happy. Netherlands thrashed England last night.

iarmhiman wrote:

Salanya wrote:Keep fighting ER; if anyone has enough humour to get through such an ordeal, it's you

And thanks for the shout Wag, it's appreciated.

Starting a new job in 5 weeks (a maternity cover, but still), and should move into a new place with the dog in 2 weeks.
Though I've quite enjoyed being a jobless nomad, also now I don't have to worry about job applications anymore (just have to mind the pennies).
And I have got a week of seaside walks coming up in Pembrokeshire, so feeling a bit better at the mo. Though I know I'm in hiding, rather than being recovered, but it's still better than things were.

Keep fighting the good fight everybody, even if it's just sharing your thoughts here!

You should be happy. Netherlands thrashed England last night.

Not my idea of a thrashing, more of a Muttley-style chuckle on some of the occasions when the English defenders couldn't kick a ball

EverReady wrote:Honest to baby Jesus I am pretty Zen these days praise Allah.

Nice, hedge your bets!
As little as it helps, some absolute wit kant off the internet are rooting for you and if could take some off the suffering for you we would. I’ll have hair loss (half bald anyway so no skin off my nose)

I understand that ER may be somewhat anxious, but he’s railroaded this hugely important depression/suicidal thread and made it all about his supposed fucking head cancer. Can’t he start his own ‘on the way out’ Fruit&2Veg homage thread? I’m so fucking close to reporting this.

For the record I wish ER the speediest of recoveries. He’s seems to be in good spirits and coping well. Much love. Kia Kaha.

EverReady wrote:Apologies bungle. I did think it risked me becoming the Kanye West of the bored and I am pretty disappointed I let it happen. From here on in I will just give a simple score e.g.

Cancer 4 Me 6

mr bungle wrote:I understand that ER may be somewhat anxious, but he’s railroaded this hugely important depression/suicidal thread and made it all about his supposed fucking head cancer. Can’t he start his own ‘on the way out’ Fruit&2Veg homage thread? I’m so fucking close to reporting this.

For the record I wish ER the speediest of recoveries. He’s seems to be in good spirits and coping well. Much love. Kia Kaha.

His Cancer is all in his head, so it counts! In any case, I had some issues with anxiety when I has my brush with Prostate Cancer, and had some counselling as well. It brought a number of issues to a head including some workplace issues.

kiwidutchie wrote:

mr bungle wrote:I understand that ER may be somewhat anxious, but he’s railroaded this hugely important depression/suicidal thread and made it all about his supposed fucking head cancer. Can’t he start his own ‘on the way out’ Fruit&2Veg homage thread? I’m so fucking close to reporting this.

For the record I wish ER the speediest of recoveries. He’s seems to be in good spirits and coping well. Much love. Kia Kaha.

His Cancer is all in his head, so it counts! In any case, I had some issues with anxiety when I has my brush with Prostate Cancer, and had some counselling as well. It brought a number of issues to a head including some workplace issues.

Thank you for your earnest response.