PR Depression, Anxiety and Suicidal

EverReady · Post by **EverReady** » Sat Nov 30, 2019 6:13 pm

18ChinsOfChinatown wrote:I've another appointment with a maxillofacial specialist on Wednesday, to learn the outcome of my MRI, which I'm hoping will put an end to the constant feeling of absolute shitiness, anxiety and stress, that I've had for the past 8 weeks.

Note: If I find out that ER's somehow managed to pass his cancer on to me, I'll slice his nipples off.

Chins the strain of sex cancer I had is most likely out there attaching itself to unsuspecting men as we speak and all because we tried to be metrosexual and satisfy our partners.
On a more serious note it is unlikely to be the really shit thing. Lumps and bumps are usually cysts of some description or some other explanation. My mate has what is called a pseudo tumour and another has some growing cysts. We used to be cool and now this shit but they are all treatable. When it is the really shit thing these days it is usually treatable and curable. The treatment is a bit shit but we are very manly. Need any help around it give me a shout.

GW02, HH and Rinks it is hard to know what to say as they are all really hard things you or people close to you are going through but this place is good for a rant. I always thought if something bad happened to me I wouldn't post on here but I was wrong and glad to be

Winnie · Post by **Winnie** » Sat Nov 30, 2019 6:32 pm

GW02 so sorry to hear your story
I can’t even try to give any advice other than this place is damn good for a rant a vent or even just to put down your feelings

Take care

Rinkals · Post by **Rinkals** » Sun Dec 01, 2019 5:34 am

Kiwias wrote:Rinks

Shit, that is a brutal story. How old was she? Your gf is going to need heaps of TLC.

She was fifty.

Yes. I won't go into details, but she had quite a tragic life.

happyhooker · Post by **happyhooker** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:04 am

moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.

Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.

YOYO · Post by **YOYO** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:21 am

Sorry to hear your sad news hh. RIP to your dad.

Kiwias · Post by **Kiwias** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:36 am

happyhooker

Sorry to hear the sad news.

EverReady · Post by **EverReady** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:45 am

Sorry to hear that HH

frillage · Post by **frillage** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 12:55 am

happyhooker wrote:
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.

Glad you were there, even if difficult at the time. I think/hope better for you and while impossible to know from way you describe how has been declining, having you there may have made it easier for him to let go.

happyhooker · Post by **happyhooker** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 1:04 am

I'm actually really annoyed with myself about the superfluous next in my previous post.

paddyor · Post by **paddyor** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 3:17 am

RIP to your dad HH, his time had come and you were there for him. Small mercies.

The length of time between death and burial in the UK(is it just Britain) is mind blowing. Makes the grieving process so much different. Hard to fathom.

Pat the Ex Mat · Post by **Pat the Ex Mat** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 3:19 am

Sorry to hear that HH

mr bungle · Post by **mr bungle** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 6:51 am

Condolences HH.

Nolanator · Post by **Nolanator** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 7:33 am

Sorry to hear that, HH.

Sefton · Post by **Sefton** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 7:37 am

happyhooker wrote:
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.

In my thoughts, mate.

DragsterDriver · Post by **DragsterDriver** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 8:59 am

Sorry to hear that hooker, my dad dropped dead a couple of years ago just before Xmas- Took ages to dispose of him. Cancer is a plum, so glad he never went through all that, he’d have hated it.

Take some time over Xmas to chill out mate, it’ll all catch up with a bang.

Winnie · Post by **Winnie** » Thu Dec 12, 2019 9:25 am

Sorry for your loss HH

HKCJ · Post by **HKCJ** » Fri Dec 13, 2019 2:41 am

happyhooker wrote:
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.

Hey HH

Just found this after reading Bimbos condolences. Just like to add mine. Cheers

Short Man Syndrome · Post by **Short Man Syndrome** » Fri Dec 13, 2019 6:29 am

HKCJ wrote:Hey HH

Just found this after reading Bimbos condolences. Just like to add mine. Cheers

Hi HH,

What HKCJ said.

I had a similar experience with my dad, my heart genuinely goes out to you, fella.

SMS

DragsterDriver · Post by **DragsterDriver** » Fri Dec 13, 2019 6:50 am

Short Man Syndrome wrote:
HKCJ wrote:Hey HH

Just found this after reading Bimbos condolences. Just like to add mine. Cheers
Hi HH,

What HKCJ said.

I had a similar experience with my dad, my heart genuinely goes out to you, fella.

SMS

Need a codebreaker asap.

SaintK · Post by **SaintK** » Fri Dec 13, 2019 9:02 am

happyhooker wrote:
moosehead wrote:HH

Sorry to hear abour your dad.

Lost my dad earlier this year... it was a slow and steady fade out by him. Last few days.... I saw the end near.
He was not the man i knew and i was happy the night he passed.

Life goes by way too quickly . Hug the ones you love and tell them how much you love them.

Take care and remember your good times / memories of your dad. You all live on from him... his legacy goes on.
Yup. Finally died this evening. I was going over anyway to visit, but made it bedside 6 minutes before he went.

I'm obviously upset, but there is an undercurrent of a massive feeling of relief. The slide over 5 months has been dramatic, but the last month he was hardly present and definitely nowhere over the last 10 days.

As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Anyway, good luck to anyone else going through this shit, treasure what you have when you can.

And oh, fúck cancer.

Ah shit!
Sorry to hear HH

Mr Mike · Post by **Mr Mike** » Fri Dec 13, 2019 9:08 am

happyhooker wrote:As ever, he has the last laugh. He always hated Christmas (his next birthday would have been Christmas eve) and being the obdurate cúnt he was and hanging on so long means that we can't burn him till after the holidays, according to the undertakers. Asking if they'd let us know if there was a cancellation was a nice unthinking moment from me earlier.

Sorry for your loss HH but I’d be very proud if one of my boys managed to come up with that when I shuffle off, as I expect your Dad would have been of you.

All the best

C69 · Post by **C69** » Fri Dec 13, 2019 10:43 am

YOYO wrote:How about positive vibes lads and lassies!!! Like if you have scrotum cancer you probably don’t want to hear a story about your best friends uncle Jim having it amputated!

Look up Forniers gangrene

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 8:28 pm

So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.

Salanya · Post by **Salanya** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 8:36 pm

Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.

Welcome to the club Tussock (though obviously sorry to hear this).

As a basic tip I'd say try to plan some good things over the festive period, seeing a friend or a kind relative, going to a game or a film or a show/concert. Christmas Day may suck, but it helps having some positive things to look forward to (even if they don't bring as much joy as they normally would, they will still be a positive distraction).

bimboman · Post by **bimboman** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 8:43 pm

Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.

Don’t be shy to keep posting if you want anything.

Take care.

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 8:44 pm

Salanya wrote:
Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.
Welcome to the club Tussock (though obviously sorry to hear this).

As a basic tip I'd say try to plan some good things over the festive period, seeing a friend or a kind relative, going to a game or a film or a show/concert. Christmas Day may suck, but it helps having some positive things to look forward to (even if they don't bring as much joy as they normally would, they will still be a positive distraction).

Cheers Salanya. Just needed to post... for my own sake. Will hopefully be catching up with family.

backrow · Post by **backrow** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 9:23 pm

Tussock wrote:
Salanya wrote:
Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.
Welcome to the club Tussock (though obviously sorry to hear this).

As a basic tip I'd say try to plan some good things over the festive period, seeing a friend or a kind relative, going to a game or a film or a show/concert. Christmas Day may suck, but it helps having some positive things to look forward to (even if they don't bring as much joy as they normally would, they will still be a positive distraction).
Cheers Salanya. Just needed to post... for my own sake. Will hopefully be catching up with family.

Rule 1 the ex ?

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 9:43 pm

backrow wrote:
Tussock wrote:
Salanya wrote:
Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.
Welcome to the club Tussock (though obviously sorry to hear this).

As a basic tip I'd say try to plan some good things over the festive period, seeing a friend or a kind relative, going to a game or a film or a show/concert. Christmas Day may suck, but it helps having some positive things to look forward to (even if they don't bring as much joy as they normally would, they will still be a positive distraction).
Cheers Salanya. Just needed to post... for my own sake. Will hopefully be catching up with family.
Rule 1 the ex ?

Haha... sorry, couldn't bring myself to fuel PR's masturbatory bank.

backrow · Post by **backrow** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 9:52 pm

Tussock wrote:
backrow wrote:
Tussock wrote:
Salanya wrote:
Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.
Welcome to the club Tussock (though obviously sorry to hear this).

As a basic tip I'd say try to plan some good things over the festive period, seeing a friend or a kind relative, going to a game or a film or a show/concert. Christmas Day may suck, but it helps having some positive things to look forward to (even if they don't bring as much joy as they normally would, they will still be a positive distraction).
Cheers Salanya. Just needed to post... for my own sake. Will hopefully be catching up with family.
Rule 1 the ex ?
Haha... sorry, couldn't bring myself to fuel PR's masturbatory bank.

Don’t worry about that - just skimmed your post history, saw you are from Nz...

Winnie · Post by **Winnie** » Wed Dec 18, 2019 10:02 pm

backrow wrote:
Don’t worry about that - just skimmed your post history, saw you are from Nz...

Look after yourself Tussock
Dont be shy to let your thoughts go in here

I'm in a dark place at the moment myself with the old health anxiety, going back to the Dr on Friday

its always therapeutic to share with the people in this thread even if its just typing things out for your own mental health

happyhooker · Post by **happyhooker** » Thu Dec 19, 2019 12:35 am

Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.

where are you based tussock?

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Thu Dec 19, 2019 2:08 am

Winnie wrote:
backrow wrote:
Don’t worry about that - just skimmed your post history, saw you are from Nz...

Look after yourself Tussock
Dont be shy to let your thoughts go in here

I'm in a dark place at the moment myself with the old health anxiety, going back to the Dr on Friday its always therapeutic to share with the people in this thread even if its just typing things out for your own mental health

Cheers Winnie. Take care.

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Thu Dec 19, 2019 2:09 am

happyhooker wrote:
Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.
where are you based tussock?

Out of Melbourne

Pat the Ex Mat · Post by **Pat the Ex Mat** » Thu Dec 19, 2019 4:56 am

We're here anytime mate

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Thu Dec 19, 2019 8:44 am

Pat the Ex Mat wrote:We're here anytime mate

Thanks Pat

DragonKhan · Post by **DragonKhan** » Sat Dec 21, 2019 11:45 am

Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.

Hope you're doing alright. It can be a very tough time of year in the best of circumstances. Career changes can really fudge with your mojo (happened to me) and you lose all sense of normal with everything else going on with your life right now.

I struggled with loneliness for years and didn't really talk to people about it so you're already ahead of me in that regard! Lol

Hope everyone has a great Xmas and appreciates the ones they have around them (even the annoying ones) as you never know what will happen in life

I'm feeling a bit sad but not for me, my uncle and 4 cousins are all about to have their first Xmas with their aunt (my mum's sister). It was a very sudden and unexpected death and one of the girls is meant to be sitting her leaving cert and I am just so sad for all of them. I want to help but feel a little helpless as they're all back home in Ireland and I am stuck in Hull this Xmas.

Nolanator · Post by **Nolanator** » Sat Dec 21, 2019 4:26 pm

Jesus. There was stories, and then there's this

DragonKhan wrote: and I am stuck in Hull this Xmas.

My deepest sympathies.

DragonKhan · Post by **DragonKhan** » Sat Dec 21, 2019 5:26 pm

Nolanator wrote:Jesus. There was stories, and then there's this

DragonKhan wrote: and I am stuck in Hull this Xmas.
My deepest sympathies.

I did walk right into that one. Merry Christmas Nolanator

Tussock · Post by **Tussock** » Sat Dec 21, 2019 9:58 pm

DragonKhan wrote:
Tussock wrote:So... I haven't been a prolific poster... but I've been stalking the forum for about 10+ years...

Fallen into a bit of a dark hole recently... marriage breakdown... career change... lack of a clear pathway... brought on by Xmas period... usually surrounded by family... this year... feeling alone. Trying to work through with a few contacts.
Hope you're doing alright. It can be a very tough time of year in the best of circumstances. Career changes can really fudge with your mojo (happened to me) and you lose all sense of normal with everything else going on with your life right now.

I struggled with loneliness for years and didn't really talk to people about it so you're already ahead of me in that regard! Lol

Hope everyone has a great Xmas and appreciates the ones they have around them (even the annoying ones) as you never know what will happen in life

I'm feeling a bit sad but not for me, my uncle and 4 cousins are all about to have their first Xmas with their aunt (my mum's sister). It was a very sudden and unexpected death and one of the girls is meant to be sitting her leaving cert and I am just so sad for all of them. I want to help but feel a little helpless as they're all back home in Ireland and I am stuck in Hull this Xmas.

Thanks DragonKhan. Well said. Take care.

Nolanator · Post by **Nolanator** » Sat Dec 21, 2019 10:56 pm

DragonKhan wrote:
Nolanator wrote:Jesus. There was stories, and then there's this

DragonKhan wrote: and I am stuck in Hull this Xmas.
My deepest sympathies.

I did walk right into that one. Merry Christmas Nolanator

Have a good one.