True Blue wrote:
GWO2 wrote:Sorry for coming on here and writing my feelings again, but, it does help to get it out. Wife is in bed and I`m by myself, Burst into tears again after thinking about yesterday, when my wife asked me what coins are these? She didn`t know the difference between a pound coin and a two pound coin, bearing in mind that she has handled our finances all our 52 years of married life. It really is shit to watch her slipping away. Apologies again for unloading my feelings again.
That sucks man. When you live with someone for many years you almost become one person. I wish you all the best and hope you have people around you that can help ease your own pain.
I myself may have liver cancer and am waiting on a diagnosis, I will know later this week most likely. My own wife has been a rock but I heard her crying in the shower yesterday and it killed me. Killed me.
Sometimes I wish we were all cold logical robots but then what would be the point of life right? At least that's what I think.
All the best.
It's not quite real is it, when you get that first notice that you may have cancer.
Then, if confirmed, it becomes horrifyingly real and yet you still don't know quite how to process it.
For me the period between the confirmed diagnosis and learning the treatment plan were...surreal. I reached anxiety levels I didn't know existed.
Once the plan was agreed though, for me at least, it all became a lot more manageable. "This is what we are going to do, this is what it involves, this is how long it will take, etc etc".
I can deal with a process much easier than just a piece of information. Typing/speaking everything in a safe place or with a person who you can unburden to, can get you through so much. Now that we have it behind us my wife recently admitted how much it terrified her, especially at the start, but she hung in there and drew some strength and a lot of solace from the fact that she was providing genuine support to someone she loves.
Its going to be hard on those around you True Blue - but don't underestimate them. They can take it if it means supporting you. Lean on them - they want you to and you will need it.