Regarding the steroid discussion
I have some opinion on this.
Let me be clear, that I don't think there's anything intrinsicly wrong with it. I have considered it myself and done a lot of research into it. To be perfectly honest, I still am considering it. These are the conclusions that I came to personally. I'm not telling you what to do, just providing something to consider:
if you're playing rugby or doing any other type of contact sport, don't do it. You'd be flat-out cheating and risking other people's health as well as your own.
don't believe the bullshit you read on steroid-forums. They're all justifying their own usage and living in their own echo-chamber where everyone-else is on gear, everyone has low testosterone, it's impossible to make any progress without gear over 30, and actual trained doctors are all morons who have no idea what they're talking about. Take some anonymous roid-heads word on that stuff with extreme caution.
don't believe this shit about not being able to put on muscle in your thirties. That is totally laughable nonsense. Your testosterone production is estimated to drop by 1% per year after thirty. So you're thirty-seven and "only" have about 93% of the natural testosterone production you had when you were 21, so now you have to jump on the gear? Gimme a break.
If you want to have high natural testosterone, sleep more and drink less booze. Do that and you'll have better testosteone than half those 25-year olds who are up all night gaming and out boozing all weekend. Once you do one cycle your natural testosterone will never be what it was before you did it.
yes, a good percentage of the most muscular guys at the gym are on steroids. Especially the younger ones who haven't even had the time to naturally produce the mass they've got. It's becoming more and more prevelant in today's culture where guys like The Rock are held up as examples of the norm to aspire to as opposed to a complete freak. Most of them are going to completely f-ck up their natural hormone production and end up at 40 with their gut hanging over the belt, depressed with completely screwed up natural hormones. Young, dumb and full'o'cum. Join their ranks at your own risk.
With all that out the way, I think you can actually do it safely and I think it can even be beneficial. Personally I actually believe that TRT as one gets older is actually good for you and could lead to a longer, healtheir life and I would like to do that myself at some stage, maybe when I turn 50. But that is a life-long commitment and f-ck sourcing the gear from the black market.
If you chose to do it, don't be a dumbass. Get frequent medical check ups, listen to doctors, good luck, and never play rugby again.
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